Should or should't

After few months, I understand that I really like you so much. I thought I'm just kidding. But now I very sure I like you so much. I realize that I care you like more than just a friend, what the hell ? I pay attention everything about you ? Holy.. I never thought I will do such thing, this is the very first time in my life. I always told myself long distance relationship not gonna works out but after I met you I realize long distance relationship more sweet than a couple which is everyday met with each other. I put a trust in long distance relationship, and no matter how I will still waiting for you. Many of friends said I'm stupid because I'm waiting for a gal which is thousand miles far with me. But I don't think so, you're the gal that let me fall from the first sight. Also a gal that so polite and understanding. But I know you only treat me as a friend, a very closed friend. I never expect too much. Actually, should or should't tel you that I like you ? Seriously, I scared after I let you know and you will keep a distance with me and we no more a close friend. Friend of mine support I should let you know about it, but my answer will still no. I choose not to tell you all this because I would rather stay close friend relationship like we have now. At least I still can care more about you. No matter when you need me, I will be there for you. You always in my heart :)

Rumors ? Gossip ? Attitude ?

After so long I busy with my things and now I'm finally free to continues with my blogs :) Many things happens around me, and so far there's nothing related to me and I wish that's not my problem too. Too much concern surely caused a lots of problem. I rather sit back and mind my own business. Recently I've seen a lots of people changing. No matter just friend, close friend or people I known. All just pop and turn into another person. I just wondering what thing can let them change so soon. The thing that make me disappointed are those which I treat them as friend but they treat me as several. When they need help I'd never reject and somehow go and help up. The thing I curios, a human being can easily changes because of some rumors. I totally speechless with those human being. I mean, friend should trust each other but why wanna create so much problem ? There's a girl ever said this to my friend, I've friend only but definitely  no good friend in my life. Me myself doesn't really agree what she said but I don't bother about it :) How I wish this world always peace. 

Princess Sick Again..

Princess fall sick again today, she's having fever up to 38.7'c but she still on train to see doctor. She scared that her ears caused the fever so she go see doc at uni.  Kinda worry about her but unfortunately I cant be there for her. Take care Tiny !! Her body getting weak and weak. Wondering how she gonna stand for winter season. I wish time passed very fast so that I can go and take good care of her :( Fever, cough and sore throat. Everything comes to her. Pray for you Tiny, wish you get well soon :)

Happy Birthday Sylvia !!

Tonight wasn't a great night for me. Kinda tired. Celebrating Sylvia's birthday tonight. Had fun with my gals. Talk a lots nonsense stuff and thing back the time when we all work together. So nice :) What a happy night actually. Happy Birthday Via !!

Why ?

Sometimes I really not understand why my friends always betray me ? I treat you guys like best buddy but why you guys again and again hurting me ? Do I look like dumbass so you guys like bully ? I really speechless on you guy's attitude. No worries, I won't revenge or find any trouble. That's only kid doing that. I just let it be, but I hope you guys grown up can ? No ones gonna help you grown up if yourself always put the blame on others. Seriously, I don't know who I tell anymore. I can't trust anyone right now. I choose to trust you only. I rather to share all my unhappy to you. I know I kinda lo so but I don't what else should I do :( But anyway, thanks for be my listener Tiny. 

As usual.

Well.. as usual like what I say, I habit to tell you whatever I do in one day :) Actually I'm just wanna taking chances to get closer with you everyday. Today actually was my bad day. Had my fever and nose blocked. Sick of it. Whole body very tired and very weak. Went to see doctor but doctor just gave me some general advice and gave me some antibiotics. I hat it so much but I have to eat it just to recover my sickness. Today you went to attend 3hours class and you told me that you almost fall asleep, that's funny :) but you still sick of being one ear listening. Hope you recover soon, Tiny. Just take your time let the pressure goes done ya :) 

Another night of missing you.

Here I go again. Today everything just goes so fine. Just wanna ask, How're you at your side ? Everything going fine too ? I just happy to received your reply everyday, at least I know you're fine and everything goes fine to you :) Today she going to see doctor due to her ear still blocked and she worried got side effected too. Kinda worried her but I know she will be fine :) She's kinda busy today, have to go down town to settle her phone and rushing for class again. Well, just wanna say Take Care yourself tiny ! Ohh.. today went to buy a new phone. Finally, I bought new phone since I want it long time ago. Weee~ Stupid me. lol

Reached to you again :)

Finally I reached you again. I was worried wonder why you suddenly like totally no news for two days >.< but now then I know you cant get internet access. Well, is fine. At least I understand that you're fine. But you still uncomfortable with you ear blocked. Tried to find way to cure your ear but its not working. You still so sick, wish you get well soon. That's the only thing I can do, wish you everything get fine there. Just want you to know that if you need me I'll be there anytime :) One of my friend told me that when we miss someone, we just look into the sky cause he told me that actually we not far apart. We are still near to each other cause we had the same sky. The beautiful sky make us nearer. That's the reason why I love sky so much. Actually, I miss you badly. I don't expect you to miss me but I hope you will look for me whenever you facing problem, I'll be there for you :)

My bad day !

Today was my bad day, everything just cant be okie for me. Just so pissed off. I'm sick of it, totally felt fed up for doing all this. I'm tired. Extremely tired for all this. I try to find someone talk to but lastly I still find you, I felt my mind calm when I've chat with you. At least someone is listening to my problem, I don't know who should I share anymore. You trying your best to calm me down and let me relax my mind. Thank a lots for that Tiny :) Kinda pity of you cause your ears blocked, trying to ask a lot of people to cure your ear but all of the ideas are the same. Tonight I had my night cause we seeing the same sky and the same stars although we so far away. Whenever I facing problem, you sure got an idea to calm me down Tiny. Thank a lots ! But I hope you also find me whenever you facing problem. I'll always be there for you :) Good night Tiny ! Have a sweet dream.

Day No. 1 Shooting Star

Finally you reached Brisbane, glad to heard that you've recover and settled down everything :) at least I not that worry anymore. You always the gal that seldom let anyone worried at you. Well, Today is the first day you there. I'm gonna wish you all the best and take good care of yourself. No matter how, I still waiting for you. I never forgot our date 14.12.2012, our meteor star date ! I'll wait for you :)

Time to say Good-bye :((

21.02.2012 -- Time flies so fast. The only gal who called me Taeyang is leaving Kuching today but unfortunately I can't send you at airport. Wish you all the best at Aussie :) Try my best to send you at airport but I still can't make it. Never thought that our last met will be on Zander's birthday party. Anyway, I believe I sure have the chance meet with you again :) I will never forgot that there's a gal I called her Tiny which is really cute enough and turn into miss tomato after she taking alcohol. I hope that we can keep in touch by net :) Miss you a lot, Tiny ! >.<

Meow Ma (Mr Zander) Birthday !

Well.. Grandma Meow's celebrate her birthday tonight. Rock and roll, babe ! Happy birthday to you, buddy :) But I late for attend her birthday, went for entertain big boss and tonight I feel so happy actually. I just wonder why. Take a lots of alcohol >< Tonight princess having fever and I didn't notice about that until Raymond told me, how reckless am I ! She was having high fever but she didn't realize too. Kinda heart pain to see she so suffer but she still attending Mr Zander's  birthday. Try to send her back but her friend come over to send her. Make sure that she's home so asked her to text me once she got home and settled down. But tonight wasn't a good night for me. Taking too much alcohol and said a lots of things in my heart and I'm hurting someone's heart and make someone angry too. Regret for all I did and serious regret taking too much alcohol. Sorry to all my friend especially Rita, I just wanna said sorry for saying speaking English in rude way to you. And also Beth, so much sorry to her cause making her so dirty tonight. But the most sorry is to Catherine, I know I seriously said something that really over tonight. But I very sure that she won't be someone replacement. And I really treat her for real. 

First time spending Valentine's day with you :)

Today is Valentine's day, saw a lots of couple busy arrange for the valentine's day. So sweet and kinda envy those who in relationship. But today I received a rose from our boss. That's cute ! kinda surprise but happy still. Well. I bought roses for you but I seriously don't dare to give it to you. But tonight someone bought you rose too :) well. I kinda nerd cause I only know make you cup cakes for your valentine >< but I really hope you like the cup cakes although it spoiled by Raymond and I kinda disappointed for that :( I failed many times for the cup cakes but lastly I did it ! Hope that you like the cup cakes >< and I thought tonight I not gonna meet you again but who knows you join out crazy single's day tonight too ! I have a great night with you actually, and all of my buddies. Love you guys to the max and made my day ! I will never forgot your red red face after taking alcohol, so cute :) How I wish every year I can celebrate my valentine's with you, Tiny 

First time you told me that you no mood.

Today not much chat more with you, you might be busy so I not much bothering you too. Was waiting for your reply the whole day :) But tonight, you did reply but you said you not in a mood. I don dare to ask more in case it make you felt annoying. I trying my best to cheer you up. I know I failed but at least you happily call me Taeyang again :) You never know how much I wish you could share your unhappy whenever you sad or unhappy. I know I cant do anything for that but I promise I gonna try my best to let you happy again. I just don wish to see you unhappy. 

Good morning to you :)

Today will be my very good Thursday ! Today you be naughty gal disturb me in early morning. but you still a good gal cause you accompanies your aunt and mummy to hospital in the early morning. Surprise me, you text me in early morning but I happy to received your text. Your text really made my day. You and I have a chat for the whole morning, that's really enough for me. At least you will think of me and find me to chit chat when you alone. Actually I was waiting for your text last night :) I never silent my phone cause I afraid that you insomnia again. I will always stay awake just to accompany whenever you need someone. I just want to by your side anytime or anywhere.

Feeling.. Is just feeling..

Well. Blog always my best friend and only blog understand my feeling. There's a strongly feeling in my heart but I don know who should I share and I choose to share here. Seriously.. I don't know how to express my feeling towards to you. Whenever I saw you, I feel so shy and my heartbeats increase. The funniest thing, I not much dare to talk more with you. Sometimes, I don't even dare one step closer to you cause I afraid that you scare of me. I ever asked myself, am I just like you for fun ? But obviously, my answer is no. Whenever the thing that you ever told me, and I remembered it all. And yet I started to care you more like no others. From that moment, I know I really fall for you. Every morning I woke up, I wish I could received a text from you but the opportunity very less. I don't dare to text you everyday cause I afraid that I too annoying for you. The only thing I do is wait for your text. I always thought that I won't gonna find a good gal but now I think I found it. Actually you so much look like "her" and we two got the same soft-heart and kindness. But I understand that you not gonna be "her" replacement in my heart. She become a pass tense for me and now I understand you the one I love but there's a distance between us. You're a good gal and have a bright future, and I'm just a bad person that seriously gonna influences you. I scold bad words all the times, smoker, drunker and always hang out late. Never serious for somethings. I mean, do I really got the qualifications to like you or not ? But no matter how, you're always the princess in my heart even you not single anymore but I still will wait for you. I don dare to wish or hope one day that you could be my partner, I just hope that you happy always and showed me your sweetest smiles all the time :) Maybe someone else is in your heart already but is okie for it. If you need a shoulder to lay down when you felt tired, I promise I will be there for you no matter when you at. I will always be there whenever you need me. I guess I could't find another good gal like you anymore, you always the one who live in my heart just because I love you and I really do :)

My only secret in my heart.

Everyone had a secret so do I. A secret that in my heart for five years, nobody understand my feeling. After five years, there still a shadow be with me all the time. I know I should let it go but I just cant forgive myself for the incident. Everyone thought is just an accident but I know is my fault, if I didn't force her out and everything will not gonna happens. Among this five years, I try to have new partner and I did. But all not the type will not treat me with their heart. I always thought that I won't gonna found a gal that really is the type I dream of. But I never knew I met again, you'r so polite and soft. I know is impossible between us so I won't gonna let you know about this. Another reason cause I scared after you know about it and you will stay away from me. Cause of you, I willing to quit smoking and drinking. Is for my own good actually but half of the reason I understand that you cant stand of cigarette smell. You're a gal that really care about your friend around you and a gal that really keep all the things in your heart. I hope one day I could have the chance to share your everything with me. You ever told me that distance is a monster. Cause it ruin all relationship but I just want to tell you that I will never forgot you and I will wait for you. Well, everyone said that far distance distance relationship won't gonna hang longer. Even we not together but I believe I will wait you back My Dream Gal, My Princess :)

Chap Goh Mei -- End of Chinese New Year :)

Time flies so fast. End of Chinese New Year already and you leaving after couple of weeks. Kinda sad to heard that you leaving soon. You send a "Gong Xi Fa Cai" regards to my grandpa. Seriously, My grandpa really happy to received the message and he did remember you are the one who send him birthdays regards too :) Grandpa wish you to join our dinner but unfortunately you cant make it. But he just so happy and cant wait to meet you actually and yet pass me an ang pao for you, how cute of my grandpa ! Thanks for made my grandpa happy, tiny :) You the only gal that will send regards to my family even we're just friend. I will appreciate this friendship so much !

Biscuits day !

03.02.2012 -- Is a free day for me, and I wanted to do some biscuits :) This is the first time I made almond biscuits, I failed for four times but lastly I did it ! weeeee~ I cant wait to bring it over let you try my new biscuits ! :D and after you taste my biscuits, you said it nice and you cant stop eating.. that's cute enough. I happy to see all my friend happy to have my biscuits although it kinda dry but at least I had 98% from my Boy Friend (Catherine Ome). Well, tonight is my happy night ! We having dinner together and sing sang song together ! But you seem unhappy to join your friend go to have some drink. and yet at Terminal One. Hmm.. Actually kinda worries you but anyway, Enjoy your night and hope you not get drunk again Princess :)

February -- Vegan month !!

01.02.2011 -- Weee ~ second month in 2012 ! but still a boring day for me.. hmmm.. what I'am doing today ? well.. Kinda busy ! today started I gonna start vegan and I wanna keep fit ! muahahaha.. today you went to sing k with your friends, but you told me that you not in a mood to sing. But end up you still have fun with your friends :) I think myself started habit to wait for your text everyday now. I wish I can everyday have your text :) You're cute tonight, and you said you gonna treat me a pack of Pocky on behalf of my mom cause I've quit smoking already :D I quit my bad habit just cause of you.. And thanks for your concern, I promise myself.. I should love myself and I won let you worried about me :)